Begin Separation - Pt. 2

Three months and twenty-seven days ago at 4:15am I sat in the rain on a damp metal bench waiting for the train to come in. Google maps seems like such a simple system but it always ends up screwing me over in terms of directions so I had arrived a full hour before my train would get there. 45 minutes before he would arrive. I’d barely slept any the night before, my jitters were so bad, so maybe it was good I’d gotten up for that early walk. St. Louis is so calm and peaceful in the morning, the opposite of how I was feeling with my quick heart beat and sweaty palms.

Finally arriving at Lambert Airport I nervously followed signs to Baggage Claim, still not quite believing he would be there. I instantly recognized him from the back of his dark, curly head and couldn’t stop smiling. He looked as nervous as I felt when he spotted me and slowly starting walking towards me. I kept walking but it didn’t feel like I was getting any closer so I ran and threw myself into his arms, holding on tight just to make sure he was real. That he was actually there.

Since that moment I haven’t stopped holding on. There’s rarely at time when he is more than arm’s length away from me. People still ask me if it’s weird or if it’s what I expected. The answer to both is no. It feels exactly like it was meant to be. It’s not perfect of course. He hates how I wander off in the middle of conversations and I hate how he cuts me off when I seem uninterested. But then I love how for the first time in my life there’s someone who holds doors open for me and insists on carrying the heavy boxes and he loves having someone who can sort out his tangled trains of thought.

This is why at the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows midnight premiere when he got down on one knee between the Cyclone and Gauntlet arcade games and asked me to marry him, there was no hesitation. I had already known for a long time that he is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. No date has been set as of yet. We’re going to wait until I finish school, which is about 2 years from now, and see how it goes from there.

The best news in all of this is that Sab isn’t going back to Vegas. My parents have generously allowed him to stay until December. While I will move into my new apartment Friday and start going to school 100 miles away from him, it’s still infinitely better than the thousands of miles that separated us before. It will be hard but hopefully come Spring we’ll be able to close the distance between us for good. Until then, just having him in the same time zone will be comfort enough.

P.S. – I don’t know what I would have done without you this summer Sab. Having you so close to me makes me wonder how we ever survived before. I’m so glad you came and even happier that you aren’t leaving. I know the next few months will be hard and I will miss you so much but know that I am always here for you no matter what. <3

A Farewell to the Holidays, Part 1

And so the holidays come to a close, and we here at Love 2.0 want to welcome everyone back to a New Year. So for the last four weeks, give or take, both Sorcha and I were on Holiday (You'll read her adventures later). My oddball adventures began simply, staying with my mother a week before Christmas. I had already known before hand that I would be in charge of Christmas Dinner since my mother had recently begun a late-night working schedule. I was happy to oblige of course since as few know, I am an aspiring chef. So Christmas Dinner was a smash success: Roast Beef, Honey Ham, Loaded Mashed, Sage and Herb Stuffing and White Rice. I was applauded by my family as everyone enjoyed the food, and my mother and I enjoyed the leftovers - for days. So help me if I see more holiday ham before next Christmas I may hurt someone. I got some good gifts: a new Cook Book, Paid Hosting, A Donation for CO.CC and a fully repaired secondary laptop!

New Years Eve was uneventful, spent it alone watching TV. New Years Day was more exciting, I spent it with my former room mates and we had a blast in the Venetian Canals, browsing the shops that caught out interests. I did get to lay eyes upon a beautiful treasure: the First Copy of the First Edition of Carroll's "Through the Looking Glass". A Mere $7300 and it would be mine to own! I also found a First Edition of Card's "Ender's Game". One of my room mates mentioned seeing a display of Ptolemy's Atlas which I felt ashamed in not noticing. We also visited a Montblanc store, which in case no one knows, is a store for Moogles (Argh, bad joke). No, in reality it is a high end finery shop for the business folk. My interests lay in their assortment of writing implements and their smooth flowing ink pens. Let is be known that I would gladly pay the $800 it takes for one of those lovely items. It shall pen every first draft for the rest of my life. After all that we ate at a nice Hawaiian place then stayed up playing Munchkin and Goldeneye. Aside from that, my final week before our triumphant return has been uneventful. I did manage to get my new laptop in order among other things, and both Sorcha and I started work on keeping our resolutions.

Now as mentioned, we are changing up our format here, instead of one special article a month, we are alternating between weeks in which we update Mondays and Fridays, and weeks in which we update Wednesdays. So look forward to that. I would also like to thank those of you who have been leaving us those wonderful comments, and I welcome everyone to leave us more inspiring comments, questions, and suggestions. I will also ask that if you have any friends or family who would enjoy reading our romantic adventures, please pass on our address, which you may have noticed has changed to the much simpler http://digitalromance.co.cc. So until next time, get your laptop a shiny new processor, and have a great week.

P.S. To my beloved Sorcha; throughout the entire stint, I was cut off from you due to Holidays of your own, dealing with family, friends, and festivities. Now the whole time I missed you dearly of course, but as the days went on I began to miss you more and more. And every form of communication we had dwindled, circumstances just stacked against us. It was annoying. Now we had come into this relationship with a unique mindset that we wanted to be both a couple, as well as keep our individuality. But I had gotten used to having you there, sitting in the corner of my screen, or in my pocket, and without you so readily in contact I felt a little lost. I knew I was supposed to be willing to be myself, but I didn't want to. I was my best when you were there, even if I wasn't talking to you, just knowing there was another heart beating near mine helped all the more. These holidays made me realise why I fell in love with you, and just how much you meant to me. This was the first strain on our relationship, and I know it won't be the last. But I have faith no matter the problems that may arise, we'll fight them together. I love you so very much, and I'm glad we are back. <3

I Miss You

I don't know that it's been explicitly stated but no, Sabrael and I haven't met IRL (god, I hate that phrase so much. I don't know why but it just seems so grating...) For the first several months of our friendship, all our communication was strictly texual (IM, email, RP, etc). Then after we started dating, we moved onto Skype and phone calls. Essentially whenever he is awake, I have myriad of ways to get a hold of him. He is rarely out of communicable reach. As am I, particularly since I'm lucky enough to have a Blackberry, or 'smart phone' if you will.

You would think that with all this accessibility to someone you have never physically met, it would be impossible to miss them. That's not exactly true. There are connotations to the word miss that you can only feel it for someone close to you who is no longer nearby so maybe it's not exactly the right word to use. However, to be exact, the word miss is defined by Merriam-Webster as 'to discover or feel the absence of.'

I feel the absence of Sabrael every day. Every morning that I wake up and he's not beside me, I miss him. Whenever I'm sitting in class and remember a silly joke he told me, I miss him. When I'm staring at the contents of my refrigerator, wondering how to construct them into a semi-decent meal, I miss him. It's usually at that exact moment that he sends me a texts gets online, or calls me and it always brings a smile to my face. As long as he is around, physically or not, I don't feel so alone in the world. My world just makes so much more sense with him in it.

Until next week, don't abandon your keyboards for too long, and have a great weekend!

P.S. - Doing the playlist post was so much fun, love. We need to do some more late night writing sometime. ^ ^ I had tons of fun just getting the chance to hang out with you so much this week and I can't wait til that becomes a permanent thing. Love you dearest! <3 Good luck on your next article!