me: XD It's ok. She wanted me to describe myself for her because I said she doesn't know who I am any more. And I couldn't think of anything. All the stuff that was coming to my mind was superficial. Likes, dislikes, hobbies. Nothing that really defined me. I'm not even sure that I have a me, just a consciousness and a disconnected body...If I bothered to do further research, I’m sure I’d find another term already coined for what Sab and I like to call, Romantic Epiphanies. Because it’s impossible that we are the first people who have tried to put this feeling into words.
Sabrael: Your a strong woman, who loves helping others, but at the same time, wishes everyone would be willing to lend a helping hand without question when it is asked of them, the way you do. You don't want to be tied down to anything unless you are sure it is something you want in your life for as long as possible. You are beautiful, and brilliant, and even though you don't know it, your admired by the people that matter most. But in the end, it boils down to three words: You are Meg. And all that means is you are the person you are, and only a special handful can translate that in their heads, because your to great for words.
me: o^ ^o Romantic Epiphany
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me: I love your voice. Accented or not. Silly voice or normal. When you're laughing, when you're distracted, when I know all you're thinking about is me, when you're nervous, when you've just woken up. I love it all.
Sabrael: o^ ^o Romantic Epiphany
For us, it’s almost always connected to words. One of us will say something to the other that’s almost a reminder of why we started on this relationship in the first place. I get that same giddy feeling that I had the first time he told me he loved me. My stomach flips around in my belly, I blush, and I can’t help but bring out my ‘Idiot Grin.’ And it doesn’t go away quickly either.
I always look forward to those moments, not only when I can receive those Romantic Epiphanies, but also give them. In a long distance relationship sometimes you feel like you can’t properly express yourself. When he says or does something that I appreciate, I can’t tackle glomp him, I can’t lean over and give him kisses. Sometimes I feel like the full effect of my love is lost somewhere in the distance between us when all I can respond with is a smile or a laugh. I treasure those moments when I can truly, unrestrainedly tell him how I feel and he just gets it. Somehow just knowing he understands means more to me than anything else could.
Love changes over time. This is a universal fact and an inevitability. And though change isn’t always bad (in fact, I would go so far as to say it rarely is) it can be unsettling and uncomfortable. Sometimes it’s just nice to be able to go back to the start and remember. All relationships start somewhere. Whether it’s out of a friendship, an undeniable attraction, a happy accident, a shared experience, or a commonality isn’t the point. The point is that there was a beginning and whatever it was, it should be remembered. I never want to forget how Sabrael first lured me in. Those beautiful, beautiful words. So until next time, let spell check know how much you appreciate her and have a great weekend.
P.S. I loved your article from Monday, Sab! It was so beautiful and the whole thing was simply full of Romantic Epiphanies. I also liked all the inside jokes you managed to subtly slip in there. I know this isn’t the first time I’ve said I had a hard week but I’m pretty sure this is the first time you’ve actually seen me have a meltdown. It wasn’t full implosion but I got close and you were beyond amazing the way you helped me through it. As always, thank you so much for being there for me and believing in me even when I don’t believe in myself. Especially then. Can’t say what I’d do without you, knowing what it’s like to have you. <3
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